so i have had xanga for four years and then some.
i spent some time yesterday reading my old entries.
it's funny how much has changed and how much hasn't.
i cant believe how open i was with my emotions on such a public site.
parts of me cringe reading those old entries. and parts of me smile for having the guts to not only be honest with myself but with everyone. to put it all out there.
it's bittersweet having the last four years on record. it's comforting in a way to remember the way things used to be.
it's cool to see the people who have stayed in your life and the people who have moved on. it's really nice to read those old entries and feel like i have matured and grown up in some aspects.

oh, but the past.
it's a tricky thing looking back into the past.
it couldnt of been as good as it seems, right?
cause i remember tears and anger and frustration.
but the bad fades ya know? and the good.
the good will always seem better than it was.
they say hindsight is 20/20.
but i think when you are looking into your own past
it's kind of like a funhouse mirror.
it will resemble how it was but it will always be warped.
and maybe that's the beauty of it all.
maybe this warped perception allows us to let go.
and in letting go of those bad things that have happened,
we can appreciate the good things.